i'm hurt and i am tired of being so...

Ok so it has come to my attention and I gotta say that this really kinda hurts… but its come to my attention that people think that I’m this great big bitch of a time bomb walking around ready to blow a fuse at any moment… and I’m sorry that you all think that but I’m sarcastic, and yes I’m bitchy but 90 % of what I say is sarcasm… I’m not really as mean as I come across and for those of you who think you’re getting an apology you’re not.  I’m explaining myself, you can choose whether you still wanna hang around or not…

This is me… plain and simple, I’m a stereotype and I’m learning to love that.  I’m big into my drag it is a HUGE part of my life and if you don’t like it then you can move the fuck on!  I’m gay, so therefore I won’t be coming to you about girls I will be talking about guys, hot sexy constantly men… that’s just how I go about things my life (as shallow as it sounds) is mostly about drag, men, and me… and that’s just how it is… I love my family, and my friends…but you gotta understand that I have several priorities that I’m trying to fulfill right now, to get a crown, to find love and to be able to truly love myself like I was able to recently…

If this is all too much for you, walk away now b4 I attach myself to you and you end up hurting me, OR vise versa… I hate to cause ppl pain, unless they deserve it, and I have no problem dishing it out… whether that’s verbally or with the back of my hand…

Some of you haven’t seen this side of me, but the passive, good about everything side is dying due to lack of mutual love and support… so this is the new me I’m becoming, I hope you can stand to be around me long enough to see who I end up as…

-Michael

i just wonder...

what it feels like to feel your life slip away as you drift out of conciousness after taking too many percocet...

ok so this is my last entry lol...

ok sooo bc of difficulties i'll not go into right now...
i won't have my phone for a while... SO if you want to
reach me... EITHER just drop by my place and hang out
or talk... OR... you could email me here and hope i get it either the next morning or that evening... but the best way to get a hold of me for a while will be just stopping by my apartment...
if you don't know where that is... well... either put the following address into mapquest:

115 E. University St.
Siloam Springs, AR 72761

And then go inside to Apt. 4 OR if you live in siloam or the surrounding areas and know how to get to the chamber of commerce just go there and i'm in the upstairs apt. ..4... either way same difference...LOL sooo yeah i'll be saving everyone's ..s so i may still be able to find a way to call every now and then but... yeah...it sucks.. i know lol

love ya'll,
michael

i posted new pics of my shows and NO ONE has commented...are you kidding me??? that's it... i give up on xanga... this is gonna most likely be my last entry...

bye...